27.7.09

不是咒他们

最近我最常思考的问题是:
父母还能活多久?
十年?二十年?三十年?
运气不好的有可能只是一年五年

怎么样才算是孝顺?
给钱他们?
生一群孙子给他们玩?
陪着他们面对病魔?
还是在他们快要死的时候才陪在他们的身边?

虽然多数做父母的都会叫
小孩们做自己想做的事
不用去顾虑他们
然后孩子们就很潇洒的离开家出去闯

去年眼看阿公快离开人间时
有些孩子还来不及看到最后一面
阿公就去了

从外国赶回来的孩子
只看到已经睡在棺材里的阿公
哭到死去活来 后悔莫及
反而我老爸还跟我开玩笑 说笑话

我问他为什么还有心情开玩笑
为什么不难过
他说他已经做了他能做的事
已经心安理得了 没什么后悔

他的一番话
多多少少有影响到我出国的决心








26.7.09

Yasmin Ahmad

Thanks for facebook, early morning at 9am, know that Yasmin just passed away. I thought it's was a joke. But seem many people are telling the same things, after google about her and it's really happened.

I thought she will be fine cause few days ago, she still updated her blog.

25.7.09

Next month plan

I am going to Bangkok on August.
Go there for what?
Of cause for food lar and the fruitssss.
especially Thailand's pineapple and coconut.

Again like i went to HK,
shopping isn't the reason i went to Bangkok.

This is my first time visit to Bangkok.
Before that, i have to do some research of it.
I must go the Old Bangkok,
hear there is a lot of nice things for photo shooting.

24.7.09

Shift Back To The Palce I Belong

Can't wait till this saturday. I am going to move all the things back to Seremban. Anythings happen in Sunway or TOA or PJS 9 is no longer as my business anymore.

Feel very tired, althought sleep 5-10 hours perday. I guess maybe graphic design is no my dreams career.

In the end of August- especially in PJS 9 area is the most beautiful moment. Uncountable white flowers are falling from trees. Such a big surprise to see that on last year. I think it's happened while every toa-ians on holidays.

20.7.09

一个约定

昨晚忽然想起我跟一个友人的约定

当年只是八 九岁的我们
就在你家门口烧东西时
说好要用十年的时间
来存钱去日本玩

不知道你还记不记得?

19.7.09

孝?

我一直认为我不是个会孝顺父母的小孩

以前小时候的我会威胁爸妈
说:如果你再烦我,等你老了就丢你去老人院

后来长大后才知道老人院是要给钱的
而且是几千块
就打消这念头了

现在的我常对父母说:
你要好好保重身体
不然等你们老了
要照顾起来很麻烦

算是孝顺吧!?

6.7.09

streamyx is sick

I think mr. streamyx is just like an old folk
It's very sick.

I guess is very serious kind of HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE
line is damn slow
I cannot watch pps

many times of disconnected
like HEART ATTACK

I own a line,
but feel like sharing the line with hundreds of people
DAMN IT~
somemore charge RM100++ per month

5.7.09

小辣椒出国去

很抱歉没去送机
没面见人也是我的理由之一
目前面部皮肤很红又严重脱皮中

小女孩长大了 独立了
也很洒脱的去外国留学

我不惯说一路顺风 觉得很老土
我是比较贪心 我要的是:
不管怎么样
最重要的是你能平安的回来


1.7.09

The man who loves me the most in the world

Few weeks ago, while I am looking for my primary school photos, I accidently found this.

My badboy father's photos while he is young. I understanding what is the different of the old time playboy and the nowsaday playboy pattern. And finally I understand why got woman love him like crazy.



Actually his height is around 180cm++ but in picture he seem like very short.
Although in the photos he seem like very gay, but his temperament is very very very bad. I had experience a lot of his bad bad bad temperament.

Don't know when, I found his old IC card in house. I thought the IC is belongs to my mother or maybe my one of aunties when I look at the photo. But I saw the name and the DOB, get shock cause the IC is belong to my father. I almost get heart attack, cause that time he was so pretty and sexy~

And I shall considering as Ter Yi words. I shall not going everywhere and spend more time with parents. Further study can be delay, my vagrant dream can wait me, money can earn later, going oversea can be eveytime, but the time for company my parents can't be delay. I am so worry I will regret some day, cause there is nothing I can change. And I believe Karma, it's make me so insecure, but sometimes it's guide me to choose the the way that I wont be regret for everyone.

primary school result

Because I forget who was my primary classmates, so I went back to my primary school to get the name list. But the clark told me they dont hav the softcopy for the name list. Then she bring me to a store room, and I have to find the name list by myself. All the files is very messy, and I found the year of 1978 documents.
And I finally found my primary school class name list after I hanging breathe a lot of dust more than half an hour.