WTH~

last time, i alway tell myself and my friends, dont push yourself too hard. after i taking course in toa, i will push myself sometimes just because i alway last minutes to completed my works.

 

But... in this fucking term now, i had try to not sleeping for almost 5 days n nights, feel damn suffering. it just because of the fucking spongebob, it really drives me crazy. for me, i think it looks ugly, n still i hav to be patient on it. i spend too many times on explore the photoshop, cause i really not good on it. i was thinking not to pass up for this assignment, in the next assigns, i will do my best. but i think the risk is too dangerous, so i hav no idea lor, had to do it, because not just only i feel suffering on it, the other students can do it, y i cant?

 

somemore in 1 week, i hav more than 10 assignments, hav to look for place to shift, hav to settle n update my insurance, group projects for moral n principle advertising, research and other personal things to settle.

 

i am quite surprise i can completed it on time, feel respect for myself, i know i already push myself to the maximum. everytime when i save my files or open the files, will spend for few minutes, that is the times for me to rest a while. thanks god that my pc is work very well for cooperate with me even i never shuting off for it for few days. maybe if it got damaging on somewhere, cause it's work really slow depend on that times i just bought it.

 

feel very sorry for my father, cause last thursday is his birthday, he ask me to go back, but i cant arrange my time for it. he is asking hav i bought somethings for him, i told him i will give him my assignmets as the birthday presant.

 

i had been 2 weeks not going to gym, not just becase i am too busy, i feel very tired after gym, and  i know i will fall asleep. if i had the time the time for gym, i think i better spend my time on sleeping.

 

for myself, when i hav sleepless can make me become concentrateless, patientless, mood worst, feel very hungry everytimes, speechless, and looks face black black everytimes.

skins become worst, so hav to drink a lots of water, when i feel hungry at the mid night n i had no time to cook, drink a lots water so that make me feel full and it is save a lot os times. i had 9 tong od biscuit, mostly i eat biscuit because i love to eat it, but now, feel vomit everytime i look at it. dont like to eat maggie mee, cause last time i alway hear that maggie mee will make people healthless and hairless, n will get cancel as well. my mother never bought maggie mee for me, so makes me dont hav the habit to eat maggie mee.

 

feel hungry for long time ago, i never eat seafood, expect steamboat. i want to eat crabs, chicken curry, satay, nasi lemak, beef steak, pizza, sotong, mango cake, ice-cream, fish.....but not biscuit.

 

4 more weeks to go, feel the times is flying while i'm rushing for my works everydays. 2007 almost end, i am going to level 20 soon. roxx told me, people who r 19 years old, will be damn unlucky, last time i wont believe it, but now i believed. cause this years, many bad things had happen, 2 person had pass away, unlucky business always happen on me, always make the wrong decision n i cant regret. feel very tired for myself... i need a long break, like a vampire sleep for hundred or thousand years in my musical n it hav plasma television n air-con in my coffin....

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cindy - 15/11/2007 8:07:17 PM

u know how to get urself to used to the tough time in life! really respect ur attitude!

tan pawxuan - 16/11/2007 1:13:20 AM

Gambatte ooo, Miao!

TY & ME

ter yi is the second people that give me strong impression. cause he look like my first love that long time ago. i can feel he is good in study, cause his pattern  look like bookworm, same as my first love. i remember after the class, roxx n i going to ming tian to hav our lunch. then i saw a a strong feeling loneliness of someway. yes! there he is. then we going to tall with him! then we introduce each other, i just remember he said he come from penang.

actually his name quite easy to remember, ter yi, de yi, mean cute. recently, i hav be crazy in fortune-telling, i use his name for doing experiment. after all, i told him about his fortune, i told him i was quite expert, cause accordance for his character. after i told him all i know, then he look at my calculation. he look at me, i feel sweat, then he scold me gao gao. because i hav make a big big mistake, i misunderstand how to write his chinese name, means i write wrong his name. he scold me cause i knew him for more than 1 year , but i still make this kind of mistake.

he's really a damn helpful guy. he is the 1st guy that i bring him to PJS home. just format my old pc. still remember he always be the last for the finished art. cause he really very slow motion, too bad.  he give me strong impressive for his art work, cause i feel it was so weird. i dont know it is consider as too creative or too weird, cause i dont understand wat is it.

i like him a lot, i love him as my best friend, but i know the affection between him n i will not be overstep. i treat him as my sister! many people said hard to catch up his mood, cause he is too sensitive, some said he is too nan gao. yes! completely like my first love, so many people will misunderstood this kind of peole. so i hav to base on my experience to face him, just hav to be patient for him, let him talk wat he wants to speak out, cause he just want a listener sometimes.

celebrate for ter yi in seven star. ashley bought for the cake, n bring the camera. actually we r trying to give him a surprise, but still let him know before we give him the surprise for his 19th(2007) birthday.

i like to be with him, cause i can learn a lot of things from him. because we come from different background, different state n different character, he told me about his sense. i am elder than him but i am much more childish than him.

i feel very touched for everytime he told me that if i am in trouble , he ask me to look for him anytime. everytime he told me like that, really make me want to hug him, n cry. too touched. some more he not just promise me, he had done it for me. i own him a lot of favor. so i promise him in the next generation i will be his daughter somedays, if i hav the luck. feel sorry for him, cauce i alway force him to goimg out with me, even he feel very sick. force with to hanging out even he had no money, force him cant be sleep because i dun know how to do my work. own him too many favor~

everytime i was worry he is too free, so i had make a lot of uncountable trouble for him. not just for my assignments n project, including my mood n personal problem. but feel regret is he dont know how to stable my mood, sometimes will make me more angry. i know he cant help me in this situation, cause he dont know the way to clam down my angst. he ask me the way to make me calm down, but i told him how do i know~

he is a dramaworm, sometimes quite weird, a hardworking guy, a stubborn monkey, skinny, very kind, look weird when he walk fast, act weird, act like ah bon~ sometime, a damn helpful friend, my sister help me a lot, my baby hav to take care of him, my lovely friend. if he need my help sure i give all my support for him! this is the only way that i show him my love for him, but mostly he dont need my help. sad~

ROXANNE & ME

I think i hav lots of fate with roxx. i feel i am luckly in my 1st term in college. depend on other classmates from other state, roxx n i are roomate. i remember 1st time i saw her, feel she not that kind of kindly. we r staying in pjs 9/12 that time. i was worry we cant be close, cause hav to stay together everydays. then aunty ruby intro her to me. i cant really remember her name, so i seldom call her name, worry if i saying wrong her name will make her angry of me.

1st day i met her, before the college start on 16/5/2006, i remember she is very busy everyday, busy for sms everytime. i was thinking about how to talk with her, try to be friendly with her. at night, i saw she is rushing to write her diary. i was jelous of her, she has the patient to write it everyday.

the next day, after the orientation, i pack my things n went to travel KL! i'm not to the shoping center, cause i dont know where i going, just when i see a bus i just get on it. i like to explore the place that i havnt been, just remember there r al ot of shops n houses, actually can consider as i was missing in somewhere, but shock! i went back to sunway at night, feel damn tired, then i saw roxx's boring face. sudden feel she is quite pity to stay in house for the whole day.

the next day after orientation, i bring her to travel KL. when we reach home at night, she sicked!

the third day, after the orientation, she laugh at the short CK, unluckly she is in the list of CD065-4, CK's class. so, we r roomate at the sametime we r classmate too. i remember i told her that i will dislike to see her 24 hours a day, then she laugh at me. when other classmate hav no friend, but we feel not lonely because we hav a person be with us 24 hours a day. go to class together, sit together, eat together, talk together, sleep together....

at night when feel lonely because of miss hometown somemore the weather is damn hot so we always sick together too... at the begining, almost everynight we hav pillow talk, talk a lot before sleep. i remember she told me a lots of her history, about her ex-boyfriendssss, her JBtalks, her best friends and so manythings. when we dont know how to do the 1st assignments about the dots n lines, we do research together...

later on, cause i always went back to hometown, left her alone in pjs, feel sorry for her. yes, that time we knew 2 guys from indonesia, feifei n filber!! then she got company liao, i also not need worry for her, got fei fei full fill her loneliness.

i stay with her only 2 n a half months then no more staying together... she help me alot, sometimes we done some crazy act, it is our secret, roxx sure will remember wat did we done be4...

i remember we listen songs together in the room. we r listening britney spears's Everytime, n many chinese songs, because u like to sing.

i remember we always eat auty ruby's roti, n finished it everyday without paying money.

i remember we try to tap the next room, want to know wat filber is doing, wat song he is listening.

i remember i ask u to teach me how to cook, but at the end it was failed. i try to eat the red bean but it make me want to vomit, then u tell me that actually u forget how to cook it.

i remember i ask u to go to tgvc's concert with me, but u want to rush for finished art assignment so u dont want to go with me, when i was back, i was showing off the poster in front of u.

i remember everyday we hav to suffer for the phone ringing tone for wake us up every morning, cause the ringtone is record by myself, the song name is "MEI GUI HUA"...hahahaha~~

i remember that u alway said u miss JB alots, miss ur bf, miss ur F4, miss everything in JB.

i remember u alway wear ur pink color hallo kitty pajamas every night. be4 u sleep will see u very busy on put many toner n many things on ur face...

i remember u always wake up be4 i wake up, u r rushing to make up be4 going to college.

i think i hav learn manything from u about beauty...~.~

and i remember the floor was always full of out hairsssss, ur is straight mine is curl hair.

i remember the 1st guy came to our house is melvin gan for discuss history of art n design 1! the second is Ashley chow come for overnight n teach me how to cook spaghetti!? the third person is Cindy Ho, her father fetch us to college n no.4 is lee ter yi to help me format my old pc!

because of u, i know what is blog, msn n friendster. u wont let me see ur blog because u worry i will told other people. i know u r hiding n guide many secret behind of me, but i just act i dont know.

i alway try to make her change her mind to cut her hair! like she cut her front hair, later cut her long hair. when i hear that she plan to cut her long hair, at the next minute, i already bring her to saloon in subang ss15 to cut her long hair. i know if i am not, the next minute she will change her mind!

Thanks roxx for guide me a lots in 1st term. especially for figures n history of art n design 1 -- i was bluring everytime dunno wat to do, so she done all the research. thanks for her in comm. skills 2 because she done all research n editng photo, i just give idea only without do anythings. i knew i hav make a lot of trouble for u roxx, sometime i can feel u r angry for my laziness, i agree i was lazy that times. really thanks a lot for roxx. XD

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roxanne low - 5/11/2007 6:14:31 AM

ur orange color make me flower eyes now @.@

something i redi 4got lo,got sick 2gether meh? O.o

i read until laugh xiao xiao sheng,cos now 6am cant lol

aiyo...ya lo, our qian shi 1 is wife 1 is husband i think

u a, phone ring until wanna boom redi oso dun1 wake up

n tat "mei gui hua" song let chris listened b4,hahahaha~

n i always get wet the floor n aunty ruby bu shuang jor

n always walk back from college n sang 2gether

n gal's talk very loud let duno who listened 2 it

hahaha~

n kacau fei fei ask him how 2 do the assignment

n u say fei fei voice very soft,u like it very much until cant sleep hahahahaha

funny la~

n like 2 tell bed story 2 eatch other hahaha

sendiri write 1 <<<<

funny la,too many things cant remember liao

now u change alot liao,more hardworking

hmm...keep it up

move back 2 PJS ba~

 

roxanne low - 5/11/2007 6:16:16 AM

y put my pic la~

walua..

now juz saw it

Carmel Ong - 5/11/2007 5:32:23 PM

i worry if someday i lost my memory, atleast i will remember u n ur face.

many thing had happen so make me lost some part of my memory between u n me.

now i still can remember a bit, so fast fast write down 1st.

diary can be missing, but blog will not missing unless i delete it. ~.~

the next main character is about ashley chow is coming soon~

蓋茨的10條“金玉良言” 要成功先要會做人

1 . 社會充滿不公平現象。你先不要想去改造它，只能先適應它。（因為你管不了它）。

2 . 世界不會在意你的自尊，人們看的只是你的成就。在你沒有成就以前，切勿過份強調自尊。（因為你越強調自尊，越對你不利）。
3 . 你只是中學畢業，通常不會成為CEO，直到你把CEO職位拿到手為止。（直到此時，人們才不會介意你只是中學畢業)。
4 . 當你陷入人為困境時，不要抱怨，你只能默默地吸取教訓。(你要悄悄地振作起來，重新奮起)。
5 . 你要懂得︰在沒有你之前，你的父母並不像現在這樣“乏味”。你應該想到，這是他們為了撫養你所付出的巨大代價。(你永遠要感恩和孝敬他們，才是硬道理)。
6 . 在學校裡，你考第幾已不是那麼重要，但進入社會卻不然。不管你去到哪裡，都要分等排名。(社會、公司要排名次，是常見的事，要鼓起勇氣競爭才對)。
7 . 學校裡有節假日，到公司打工則不然，你幾乎不能休息，很少能輕鬆地過節假日。(否則你職業生涯中一起跑就落後了，甚至會讓你永遠落後)。
8 . 在學校，老師會幫助你學習，到公司卻不會。如果你認為學校的老師要求你很嚴格，那是你還沒有進入公司打工。因為，如果公司對你不嚴厲，你就要失業了。(你必須清醒地認識到︰公司比學校更要嚴格要求自己)。
9 . 人們都喜歡看電視劇，但你不要看，那並不是你的生活。只要在公司工作，你是無暇看電視劇的。(奉勸你不要看，否則你走上看電視連續劇之路，而且看得津津有味，那你將失去成功的資格)。
10 . 永遠不要在背後批評別人，尤其不能批評你的老板無知、刻薄和無能。(因為這樣的心態，會使你走上坎坷艱難的成長之路)。

A JOURNEY IN KL 13/8/07

during holidays, nothing to do, very lonely but not itch, want to make trouble for friends but most of them rushing for their final master works, watching uncountable movies, so boring. hope to go back to hometown, but i can't. hav no choice, then go to explore kl! since 1st term till now, feel hav been long long time never travel alone in kl, maybe i am too lonely. planning for spending the whole day time at the same time, try to  get a part time job for spending my holidays. i plan from SUNWAY > CENTRAL MARKET > PETALING STREET > BUKIT BINTANG & SUNGAI WANG > KLCC > MID VALLEY > SUNWAY. for saving my limited money, better choice rapid kl, mean travel for the whole day just for RM4 only. bring everythings but i hav forget my canon camera. started my journey at 11am.

 

actually i am trying my luck for hope there is any FREE exposition in central market, but i hav disappointed. while i hav pass by a small beef noddle shop near petaling street but not inside it, saw inside there people mountain people sea. i tried it, but feel disappointed too. a family come from hong kong for visit malaysia, they sit with me because i use a big table but i just alone. they r discuss about malaysia food, because of their language tone so i am sure their r from hong kong, the children's skin looks so nice n smooth, pink n red in color. they r father, mother, 1 sister n 1 brother. feel funny while i saw the children ask a lot of question about the food but their parent can't answer it. i just busy body, try to answer their question, feel console cause atleast they r understand wat i'm saying. after saying good bye to them, hav a look in petaling street. saw many shop want to employ sales assistant, but the work time is too long, n they aspect a full time worker, tuesday to sunday from 10am to 9.30pm, i hav no interested work for full time. 

 

  later i want to go to bukit bintang or klcc, but then i hav miss the station, so i lost in somewhere again, actually i am not really know where i am. i try to ask a old auntie, but i can't understand wat she said, just forget about it. try to get another bus to going back to kl central, wait quite a long time. just hav a look around while waiting the bus. a taxi man with face meat meat meat body fat fat, he's asking me where i want to go, i ttold him i want to go to bukit bintang. then he said cost RM20, i said no. then he said RM18, i said too expensive. again he said RM15, then i said RM15 can be my 5 set of meal. i walk away from him for taking photo, later again stand near to the taxi man. hahaha... this time he told me that he send me to there for FREEEEEEEE... then i say nothing is free, free things must be bad things, taxi man get boomed, thanks to him for let me boom....

 

  reach KLCC, too many people makes me no mood to stay in klcc. i try to go in a washroom, but there is a notes board write the toilet eill cost RM2.00, get boomed again, like this also can?? RM2 per enter for the HIGH CLASS toilet. but the other floor toilet is free.

 after that, take bus again, finally i reach bukit bintang, having my luch in WEI SIK GAI, try my luck again to choice a stall, luck not bad, yor~.~ order cha shu fan & a cup of 王家奶茶(curious wat it is). i hav let the stall boomed till half dead, actually 王家奶茶 = teh tarik = RM2.50 fly away.... almost heart attack...but atleast the 叉烧饭 taste very good...spend a few hours in sungai wang, plan to get job here, but too far from sunway to here. non stop to walk around every floor, updated myself for the latest fashion, control myself for not to buyung things even i had no money at all. the way to control for not buying things is not to bring more then budgeted money. walk around n around, look at the time just be aware of it is 7.28pm, omg... cancel to visit mid valley, go back to sunway directly. feel so tired, must because of burn too many fat & caloric ~.~!!!.....

A FRIEND HAS PASSED AWAY

14/7/2007, my very important friend has passed away in motor accident. actually i don't believe it, i thought it was a joke. and then i don't care about it. after a few hours, i call Puvaneswari, she told me that the Kesaven really has passed away. but i still don't believe. the only way to make sure he is death is I have to go back to seremban. that time was 1am, but i was so worry, although i'm look so calm. i drive as fast as i can back to seremban. my grandmom has just passed away, how colud u give me such a big surprise! reach shaun's house, saw kesaven death body, his sister crying, a lot of women around his, full of flower cover up his body, a cloth cover up half his face, joss stick is burning. getting shock, can't think anything. sudden the mind flash back the memory, about how u treat me good in methodist high school, help me a lot when i was getting bully from someone, we were making noise together in the school canteen...i feel very touched when i heard u said i'm ur sister. you r my first friend that left me in this world. feel regret that i didn't had the chance to see u when u r after the accident... after this, i think i have to be ready for anyone will left me away from everywhere, everytime.

MY BLURRING WEIRD OCTOBER

many things happen on tihs october. dont know why i feel very blur and weird on this month, brain is out of function, dont know what am i doing... feel blur that i consent with ashley's every invitation. actually because i treat her as my good friend, so i will consent every her invitation without thinking, cause i dont think she will bring harmful for me. even she bring trouble for me, i will feel glad to accept it, i believe i can settle it. cause for me, friends mean making trouble for each other, but not used on each other. cause i think no one like to be used.  so, the people who i alway making trouble for him or her, that mean i really like n love him or her a lots.

1st, about lovely ash, when ash asking me to company her to her friend's house on the next day, actually that time my mind is stucking. then she said, there is a PS3 & Xbox in her friend's house, so make me really want to go with her. But i dont know her friend, n somemore her friend is a guy! that time i was thinking start from when she becomes so openminded. she told me not just she n me, somemore people will going together, then i tell her i will think about it. the next day, when i was regain my consciousness, i already meet her in front of toa. that time i really feel very weird for my action, i thinking is that the owner feel favorably to bring a stranger to stay in his house. I hav think a lots, but after i touch the ps3, there was nothing more important than i spending time dating with ps3. really thanks a lot for the ps3 owner. this is the 1st things i feel weired. but anyway, thanks for ash to bring me there.

2nd, about dearly yitbo, cause he is the 1st guy i hav celebrate twice for his birthday celebration. so i hav to eat twice of his birthday's cake, sing twice for his birthday's song, clap twice for him, take twice video n photo of him. because his is so popular, such a nice guy and somemore sometimes he is quite helpful, and sometimes quite gentlemanly, so lots of people including me will glad to celebrate for him. but honestly, i feel enjoying for the 1st day celebrate for him with digi students, playing games with friends, almost getting mad, but i was really happy, make me forget about my irritated, really thanks for them.

3rd, again about lovely ash's invitation.(~.~) we r going to you hai birthday's celebration. actually cause i'm not digi student, the other all r digi students, feel very weird for my arise. but then because i love to join in the fun and i know you hai, so sure i will going. be4 i went out, again i lock myself at the outside of my personal room, omg. i left my keys inside my room again. there is a extra keys for the house main entrance, so i can go out. they plan to giving you hai a big surprise, but... actually they all r mistaking the date!!he born in 18 nov but they thought is 18 oct, boom me gao gao, really sweat~~!!! they said you hai feel unhappy for nobody celebrate for him, so he dont want to hav lunch with them, so they hav to remedy. the cake is delicious, mango cake.

fourth, there r many people sick on this month, including me. i finally understan the feeling of the other toa students. for me, 1 medicine will cost me sleep for more then 16 hours, and somemore i hav cold, cough, i lose my voice. i know i cant eat medicine cause i will spending time to sleeping n rest, then i hav no time to completed my assignments. so i hav no choice, i cant eat the medicine, so i hav sick for 10 days, *wtf.  feel suffer to do assignments.

fifth weird things, i just release that i am much more hardworking if depend on the 1&2 term in toa, actually this moment is the most hardworking time in my whole life. i really glad i hav change myself, atleast for figures only i always last minutes work, other subject mostly i hav done early. there is a reason why i hav change myself, cause i found out i really like those subject very much. it is my interest, i hav to put all my effect on it . i like to hear the lecturer told me i hav improve on my works, feel vanity. i think the lecturer hav build up my confidence for my works except figures sketching. someone told me i hav to learn to like the subject, i hav to try so hard to make myself to not hate figures, yes i done it, atleast i like simplefication figures.

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ashley chaw - 11/11/2007 8:44:57 PM

lol...lovely ashley ah... XDXDXD

i hope i wont bring you much trouble as always..U_U
but at least you got to touch ps3 LOLLL
so long i din read ur blog
cus i dunno u got write it =n=
...aihhhh DG student is liek that de .. alll so blur blur.