WTH~

last time, i alway tell myself and my friends, dont push yourself too hard. after i taking course in toa, i will push myself sometimes just because i alway last minutes to completed my works.

 

But... in this fucking term now, i had try to not sleeping for almost 5 days n nights, feel damn suffering. it just because of the fucking spongebob, it really drives me crazy. for me, i think it looks ugly, n still i hav to be patient on it. i spend too many times on explore the photoshop, cause i really not good on it. i was thinking not to pass up for this assignment, in the next assigns, i will do my best. but i think the risk is too dangerous, so i hav no idea lor, had to do it, because not just only i feel suffering on it, the other students can do it, y i cant?

 

somemore in 1 week, i hav more than 10 assignments, hav to look for place to shift, hav to settle n update my insurance, group projects for moral n principle advertising, research and other personal things to settle.

 

i am quite surprise i can completed it on time, feel respect for myself, i know i already push myself to the maximum. everytime when i save my files or open the files, will spend for few minutes, that is the times for me to rest a while. thanks god that my pc is work very well for cooperate with me even i never shuting off for it for few days. maybe if it got damaging on somewhere, cause it's work really slow depend on that times i just bought it.

 

feel very sorry for my father, cause last thursday is his birthday, he ask me to go back, but i cant arrange my time for it. he is asking hav i bought somethings for him, i told him i will give him my assignmets as the birthday presant.

 

i had been 2 weeks not going to gym, not just becase i am too busy, i feel very tired after gym, and  i know i will fall asleep. if i had the time the time for gym, i think i better spend my time on sleeping.

 

for myself, when i hav sleepless can make me become concentrateless, patientless, mood worst, feel very hungry everytimes, speechless, and looks face black black everytimes.

skins become worst, so hav to drink a lots of water, when i feel hungry at the mid night n i had no time to cook, drink a lots water so that make me feel full and it is save a lot os times. i had 9 tong od biscuit, mostly i eat biscuit because i love to eat it, but now, feel vomit everytime i look at it. dont like to eat maggie mee, cause last time i alway hear that maggie mee will make people healthless and hairless, n will get cancel as well. my mother never bought maggie mee for me, so makes me dont hav the habit to eat maggie mee.

 

feel hungry for long time ago, i never eat seafood, expect steamboat. i want to eat crabs, chicken curry, satay, nasi lemak, beef steak, pizza, sotong, mango cake, ice-cream, fish.....but not biscuit.

 

4 more weeks to go, feel the times is flying while i'm rushing for my works everydays. 2007 almost end, i am going to level 20 soon. roxx told me, people who r 19 years old, will be damn unlucky, last time i wont believe it, but now i believed. cause this years, many bad things had happen, 2 person had pass away, unlucky business always happen on me, always make the wrong decision n i cant regret. feel very tired for myself... i need a long break, like a vampire sleep for hundred or thousand years in my musical n it hav plasma television n air-con in my coffin....

Comments

cindy - 15/11/2007 8:07:17 PM

u know how to get urself to used to the tough time in life! really respect ur attitude!

tan pawxuan - 16/11/2007 1:13:20 AM

Gambatte ooo, Miao!

TY & ME

ter yi is the second people that give me strong impression. cause he look like my first love that long time ago. i can feel he is good in study, cause his pattern  look like bookworm, same as my first love. i remember after the class, roxx n i going to ming tian to hav our lunch. then i saw a a strong feeling loneliness of someway. yes! there he is. then we going to tall with him! then we introduce each other, i just remember he said he come from penang.

actually his name quite easy to remember, ter yi, de yi, mean cute. recently, i hav be crazy in fortune-telling, i use his name for doing experiment. after all, i told him about his fortune, i told him i was quite expert, cause accordance for his character. after i told him all i know, then he look at my calculation. he look at me, i feel sweat, then he scold me gao gao. because i hav make a big big mistake, i misunderstand how to write his chinese name, means i write wrong his name. he scold me cause i knew him for more than 1 year , but i still make this kind of mistake.

he's really a damn helpful guy. he is the 1st guy that i bring him to PJS home. just format my old pc. still remember he always be the last for the finished art. cause he really very slow motion, too bad.  he give me strong impressive for his art work, cause i feel it was so weird. i dont know it is consider as too creative or too weird, cause i dont understand wat is it.

i like him a lot, i love him as my best friend, but i know the affection between him n i will not be overstep. i treat him as my sister! many people said hard to catch up his mood, cause he is too sensitive, some said he is too nan gao. yes! completely like my first love, so many people will misunderstood this kind of peole. so i hav to base on my experience to face him, just hav to be patient for him, let him talk wat he wants to speak out, cause he just want a listener sometimes.

celebrate for ter yi in seven star. ashley bought for the cake, n bring the camera. actually we r trying to give him a surprise, but still let him know before we give him the surprise for his 19th(2007) birthday.

i like to be with him, cause i can learn a lot of things from him. because we come from different background, different state n different character, he told me about his sense. i am elder than him but i am much more childish than him.

i feel very touched for everytime he told me that if i am in trouble , he ask me to look for him anytime. everytime he told me like that, really make me want to hug him, n cry. too touched. some more he not just promise me, he had done it for me. i own him a lot of favor. so i promise him in the next generation i will be his daughter somedays, if i hav the luck. feel sorry for him, cauce i alway force him to goimg out with me, even he feel very sick. force with to hanging out even he had no money, force him cant be sleep because i dun know how to do my work. own him too many favor~

everytime i was worry he is too free, so i had make a lot of uncountable trouble for him. not just for my assignments n project, including my mood n personal problem. but feel regret is he dont know how to stable my mood, sometimes will make me more angry. i know he cant help me in this situation, cause he dont know the way to clam down my angst. he ask me the way to make me calm down, but i told him how do i know~

he is a dramaworm, sometimes quite weird, a hardworking guy, a stubborn monkey, skinny, very kind, look weird when he walk fast, act weird, act like ah bon~ sometime, a damn helpful friend, my sister help me a lot, my baby hav to take care of him, my lovely friend. if he need my help sure i give all my support for him! this is the only way that i show him my love for him, but mostly he dont need my help. sad~

ROXANNE & ME

I think i hav lots of fate with roxx. i feel i am luckly in my 1st term in college. depend on other classmates from other state, roxx n i are roomate. i remember 1st time i saw her, feel she not that kind of kindly. we r staying in pjs 9/12 that time. i was worry we cant be close, cause hav to stay together everydays. then aunty ruby intro her to me. i cant really remember her name, so i seldom call her name, worry if i saying wrong her name will make her angry of me.

1st day i met her, before the college start on 16/5/2006, i remember she is very busy everyday, busy for sms everytime. i was thinking about how to talk with her, try to be friendly with her. at night, i saw she is rushing to write her diary. i was jelous of her, she has the patient to write it everyday.

the next day, after the orientation, i pack my things n went to travel KL! i'm not to the shoping center, cause i dont know where i going, just when i see a bus i just get on it. i like to explore the place that i havnt been, just remember there r al ot of shops n houses, actually can consider as i was missing in somewhere, but shock! i went back to sunway at night, feel damn tired, then i saw roxx's boring face. sudden feel she is quite pity to stay in house for the whole day.

the next day after orientation, i bring her to travel KL. when we reach home at night, she sicked!

the third day, after the orientation, she laugh at the short CK, unluckly she is in the list of CD065-4, CK's class. so, we r roomate at the sametime we r classmate too. i remember i told her that i will dislike to see her 24 hours a day, then she laugh at me. when other classmate hav no friend, but we feel not lonely because we hav a person be with us 24 hours a day. go to class together, sit together, eat together, talk together, sleep together....

at night when feel lonely because of miss hometown somemore the weather is damn hot so we always sick together too... at the begining, almost everynight we hav pillow talk, talk a lot before sleep. i remember she told me a lots of her history, about her ex-boyfriendssss, her JBtalks, her best friends and so manythings. when we dont know how to do the 1st assignments about the dots n lines, we do research together...

later on, cause i always went back to hometown, left her alone in pjs, feel sorry for her. yes, that time we knew 2 guys from indonesia, feifei n filber!! then she got company liao, i also not need worry for her, got fei fei full fill her loneliness.

i stay with her only 2 n a half months then no more staying together... she help me alot, sometimes we done some crazy act, it is our secret, roxx sure will remember wat did we done be4...

i remember we listen songs together in the room. we r listening britney spears's Everytime, n many chinese songs, because u like to sing.

i remember we always eat auty ruby's roti, n finished it everyday without paying money.

i remember we try to tap the next room, want to know wat filber is doing, wat song he is listening.

i remember i ask u to teach me how to cook, but at the end it was failed. i try to eat the red bean but it make me want to vomit, then u tell me that actually u forget how to cook it.

i remember i ask u to go to tgvc's concert with me, but u want to rush for finished art assignment so u dont want to go with me, when i was back, i was showing off the poster in front of u.

i remember everyday we hav to suffer for the phone ringing tone for wake us up every morning, cause the ringtone is record by myself, the song name is "MEI GUI HUA"...hahahaha~~

i remember that u alway said u miss JB alots, miss ur bf, miss ur F4, miss everything in JB.

i remember u alway wear ur pink color hallo kitty pajamas every night. be4 u sleep will see u very busy on put many toner n many things on ur face...

i remember u always wake up be4 i wake up, u r rushing to make up be4 going to college.

i think i hav learn manything from u about beauty...~.~

and i remember the floor was always full of out hairsssss, ur is straight mine is curl hair.

i remember the 1st guy came to our house is melvin gan for discuss history of art n design 1! the second is Ashley chow come for overnight n teach me how to cook spaghetti!? the third person is Cindy Ho, her father fetch us to college n no.4 is lee ter yi to help me format my old pc!

because of u, i know what is blog, msn n friendster. u wont let me see ur blog because u worry i will told other people. i know u r hiding n guide many secret behind of me, but i just act i dont know.

i alway try to make her change her mind to cut her hair! like she cut her front hair, later cut her long hair. when i hear that she plan to cut her long hair, at the next minute, i already bring her to saloon in subang ss15 to cut her long hair. i know if i am not, the next minute she will change her mind!

Thanks roxx for guide me a lots in 1st term. especially for figures n history of art n design 1 -- i was bluring everytime dunno wat to do, so she done all the research. thanks for her in comm. skills 2 because she done all research n editng photo, i just give idea only without do anythings. i knew i hav make a lot of trouble for u roxx, sometime i can feel u r angry for my laziness, i agree i was lazy that times. really thanks a lot for roxx. XD

Comments

roxanne low - 5/11/2007 6:14:31 AM

ur orange color make me flower eyes now @.@

something i redi 4got lo,got sick 2gether meh? O.o

i read until laugh xiao xiao sheng,cos now 6am cant lol

aiyo...ya lo, our qian shi 1 is wife 1 is husband i think

u a, phone ring until wanna boom redi oso dun1 wake up

n tat "mei gui hua" song let chris listened b4,hahahaha~

n i always get wet the floor n aunty ruby bu shuang jor

n always walk back from college n sang 2gether

n gal's talk very loud let duno who listened 2 it

hahaha~

n kacau fei fei ask him how 2 do the assignment

n u say fei fei voice very soft,u like it very much until cant sleep hahahahaha

funny la~

n like 2 tell bed story 2 eatch other hahaha

sendiri write 1 <<<<

funny la,too many things cant remember liao

now u change alot liao,more hardworking

hmm...keep it up

move back 2 PJS ba~

 

roxanne low - 5/11/2007 6:16:16 AM

y put my pic la~

walua..

now juz saw it

Carmel Ong - 5/11/2007 5:32:23 PM

i worry if someday i lost my memory, atleast i will remember u n ur face.

many thing had happen so make me lost some part of my memory between u n me.

now i still can remember a bit, so fast fast write down 1st.

diary can be missing, but blog will not missing unless i delete it. ~.~

the next main character is about ashley chow is coming soon~