Nightmare on October

Just realize every year 1st term always very busy. I saw junior doing their assignments, remind me just 1 year pass, but feel like long long time ago. Feel tired, and loss the passion for design. I think i should learn some new thing...example like sewing?

I cannot believe, i have four subjects only, but it's really makes me crazy because of uncountable assignments!!! Sometimes just slept for 2 hours, then i had to go to class at 10am. My skin is getting worst....haiz...
All the skin care product not cheap, but all wasted, it does not effect when you did not sleep for few days. Yar, eyes bag are going to layer 2, but havn't become panda yet...

I try to drink coffee to make we awake, but i feel like i am getting heart attack, heart beating become very fast, feel wants to vomit. After that, i promise i will never touch coffee anymore.

I wish i can spend sometimes to read books. but it's a extravagant enjoyment for me at this moment. keep a lot of books with me, can see it, but no time read it, suffering....I still can heard from it: read me, read me, read me... but I cant, will rather than go to sleep...
My lovely camera had been treated bad coldly from me, never bring it for long time ago.
feel sorry for cousin, i promise will shoot photos for her, but at the end is I fang fei ji liao. really very sorry...
friends from seremban ask me to go out, i'm also fang their fei ji, damn sorry...
almost 7am, 3 more hours then have to go to class, should take a rest for 2 hours.
(mood worst)

haha~~SAI HONG & JOANNA are going to level 20!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAM SAI HONG & JOANNA.

upgraded to level 20!!!
both of them are my lovely friends, and they born in same day same month and same year!!! It is a fate. two little lovely scorpion~
maybe i should introduce them to know each other!!??
just now when i was having class, sai hong call me, actually i do not get it why he will call me...haha~^^
I should and i will call him tonight, but seem like he miss me more than I miss him...haha~~(very shy)
Sorry for that, because this few days I am very(X 99) busy.
sai hong, I own u 1 birthday present, when u see me, pls remind me yar~ hoho~
Joanna, your present i already giving you long time ago.  hehe~

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now is the almost end of October.
time pass so fast. i still remember I had counted down with the sexiest guy in my class, Laston the Great, in his car by on the way to 1 Utama.
We miss the fireworks because of the damn stuck traffic.. haha^^
have to think about what shall i do in 2009. what is my positioning on my next step? How did i do it?
Yes, I am thinking. 

无奈

很无奈~
最近有很多传闻
身为当事人的我总是最后一个才知道。
不知是谁得空没事做在胡言乱语。
现在不得不讲清楚。

第一件事：

有关Calvin Wong

之前有传我跟他吵架,
为此我哭了的的事情.

至亲离开人间，谁会不哭？
我是哭了是因为当晚我祖父刚过世,
我拨电话跟队友说我退出,
电话里头我是没交待清楚,
加上当天我确实是有跟CALVIN有些口角。

因为要回家乡几天,
要等到祖父出殡才回来，
比赛期限要到了，
队友太多人，
在决定退出。

虽然跟Calvin八字合不来，
老是吵架，
但是也不是传言中那样。
纯粹合不来而已。

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第二件事：

有关YB的事。

这件事比较废。

重点就是，
我们是朋友。

从以前到现在也是朋友。
不想为了传言而失去长久建立的友情，
太不值得也太傻了。

冤枉所以要伸冤

冤枉啊~
很多人以为我有很多朋友。
讽刺得很呢！我觉得很寂寞因为没很多朋友。
所以我一定要伸冤！

Case 1:
连远在汶莱的Ashley的大姐都知道！
话说当时我在汶莱跟Anne（Ashley的大姐）& Arisu (Ashley小妹) 打牌
聊下聊下，聊到我身上。
大姐说了很多，其中一句是：“ 我听我妹说你家庭的问题，不过你有很多朋友，不用担心啦！！”  -_-|||

Case 2:
C : 你们要吃晚餐吗?
B : 我们刚刚出去吃饱了
C : 这样啊。。。我自己出去吃吧~ 
A : 她有很多朋友啦，不会怕寂寞没人陪的。
C : 。。。

Case 3:
D : 你真得很多朋友咯。每次跟你出门，你都会遇到朋友的！
C : 在学院地带，当然会遇到认识的人啦。
D : 我跟你同校的，又不见我到处跟人打招呼？
C : 刚好遇到罢了。读多一个学期，当然会认识多一点人。

Case 4
C : 你明天有去XXX地方吗？
F : 有啊
C : 可以搭你的车吗？
F : 可以。不过我会迟到，我要载我妈回家先才去。如果你赶时间叫其他人载你。
C : 我认识的人很少，很不好意识。很尴尬。
F : 哈哈哈！！！你骗人咯！你明明很多朋友。C : 。。。

还有很多的立案无法一一列出
说者无心，但我觉得很讽刺。
我真得没什么朋友，来来去去都是那几个。
无可否认，我是认识很多人，
但都是点头之交，算不上是朋友。

很多朋友的人是很外向，常常出门的。
我内向，没人信。
事实是我是宅女帮帮主，
懒的出门，也没出门的理由。

早午晚餐时常不知道要找谁吃，
只好吃自己。
很多朋友的人是没有这问题吧！
室友？一个星期里只看到他一次。
其它日子他多数在朋友家过。
我都快忘了他的样子。

msn里有很多认识的人。有小学的，中学的，亲戚，学院的，不知哪里认识到的，忘了那里认识到的，等等。。。
因为很被动，所以都很少聊天。多数都是讲功课。
无助感很重时，想到 ter yi, 可是他都不理我了。
常听他说需要帮忙时可以找他。
到真的需要他时，他说他很忙。
有时候 不是对方不在乎你 而是你把对方看得太重 = 自作多情
是比喻lee ter yi。
9/10 都是被他拒绝的，借口还是：他很忙。
一直以来，很多人问我是不是喜欢他。
我是喜欢他，以朋友的喜欢他，如姐妹，如兄弟,纯粹友情。没有性冲动那种。
我以为我跟他是好朋友，事实上是我自作多情。心酸。。。

还有我一定要伸冤一件事，
我是很个害羞的人。
很白目，并不代表不懂害羞，只是反应不过来。
皮肤黝黑，所以面红害羞时没人看得出。
难道要我夹紧双腿，别过面，两手遮着面，缩成一团，那才叫害羞？
好！没人看得出，没关系！
那我说出来：“我害羞”。
结果呢?没人信之外，还说我很做作。
很不爽！！！